Thepathwithoutfootsteps

I love you.

I mean it when I tell you I love you. Every single time and full heartedly. I love you more and more each day, never being a day where I questioned why because I know my heart does not lie. I still don’t know to this day why you chose me at the time you did and the way you did, but with all these unanswered questions, I’m convinced this was not a mistake. In fact, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love the way we used to just stare at each other. That’s how I knew you were really crazy about me. You used to have this look in your eyes saying “I have the most beautiful, wonderful girl with me right now, and she’s all mine”. You didn’t have to tell me. I knew just how much you adored me. The silence that tells the story is a story to last. As it becomes that time where we take our own paths, I will never say good bye. It will never be a good bye. It will be, “see you when you get back, sweetheart!” I am sure of you. I have never been so sure of anything else in my entire life. Having you in my life is as important to me as breathing. As long as you feel as I do, there will be no doubt of us. I have loved you before, I love you today, and I will love you tomorrow.

“I did not get myself into this to get myself out of it” -Aunt Vanessa

March 18, 2012 Dreamgirl

Role play

The way things have turned out i’m not really sure what to believe. I once thought those people were somebody then my perception changed as I did. Now they resemble what I once was. I do not enjoy seeing people act that way anymore. Does that mean I was wrong? Do I hate what brought me those memories of pure joy?

Free love

To put every action in the past out of mind would be magical. To forget the self inflicted pain and agony of thoughts and no longer deal with them would be a miragle. The thought of just being happy sounds like a fairytale. Instead of the fear of what could happen to just be happy that you’re happy is a dream. In a place where there is no such thing as tomorrow, where we aren’t promised we’ll live any longer you are all I have at the present time. I carry you with me inside, I guess to not forget you but I really do feel you there. We are all we have at any given time although we aren’t together. That’s a magical feeling to realize when it hits you. Why shouldn’t we be free to be happy? Why couldn’t we be happy because the other is happy? That would be something special wouldn’t it.
Superlative.

I love you.

<3

Transparent

It’s surprising how many things are enjoyed once you figure them out. The affections once so vague now made vivid give a real sense of what was really behind them. To feel ones love you need memory, you need to remember what the other has done for you and when you come full circle you can finally realize what you were feeling or what you should have felt. The intentions of one’s actions are often quite confused, you need to completely understand that person before you can understand what they intend.

Rule to apply, not quitting on someone that has the chance to turn full circle before they get there. Fear is no reason not to explore possibility of love.

Love is not simply love, it is an entire realm of emotions that churn the bodies desire for life.

Desire has little worth outside of the present, no need to extend beyond that which already exists in hopes of obtaining more in terms of people. One satisfies or they aren’t going to grow with you.

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Cheers

Here or there I’ll be there for you. For some reason I can’t say no to you, the struggle I encounter seeing that facial expression change from excited to let down hurts me. You’ve taught me what I want in this aspect of life and I never knew this would come from a simple question nearly seven months ago. A simple invite to prom between two strangers. It hasn’t been common but it has been our own, we have created this life to be our own. I am excited for what has happened and even more excited for what is to come. I have what I want in you and I hope I do the same for you. I call you my Dreamgirl because you are, I trust you when you say that I am your Dreamboy.

So cheers to us, to half a year and to finishing our first out together.

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The New Home

Expectations seem to often fail when relying on others. Sometime we allow their hopes for us to become our reality , for me that’s lasted to long. I’ve been lied to about all the glories to come when all that’s been put forth for me is misery and the dismal truth my entitlements are no where in sight. It’s quite eye opening to realize you’ve been lied to by someone who you have had trust in for your entire life. I’ve been driven away and lied to for the last time while this is home.

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One

To treat the strangers that serve us our food as people.

Imaginary questions

It’s the questions we ask ourselves that we don’t understand. Never has someone known enough about you to ask you something that could puzzle you as the way you do to yourself. Keeping this in mind it’s these questions, false ideas, and emotions we place with words that cause such confusion in our minds when others speak. Our difficulty to understand isn’t anything more than these truths about our communication. If life could escape such mishaps we’d be better off, but then again where would all the passion and fun be. We wouldn’t ever be upset with anything anyone says when they don’t understand why. This would all make sense and at that point love would be boring. It’s frustrating on one end however it’s exciting and the aftermath will be unchanged, just another day passing through our life’s.

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